A Little Introduction

I was once told by a superficial guy on a train that I was the typical girl next door. Funny how that stuck with me. I didn't disagree with him, I may seem pretty average. But nothing in my life has been average! So I decided to start this blog with the similarities and differences of being the girl next door ~ Jo.

Why I am the girl next door.
1.I have brown hair and green eyes.
2. I am a little overweight but not obese.
3. I am married with 2 kids.
4.Grew up in a single parent family on welfare.

Based on those 4 things I think about 60% of women my age can relate. Oh yeah and that being said I will turn 30 in Jan 22/2010.

Now the things that make me different~ almost everything haha!
To begin with I was an accident. My mother was divorced and slept with a married man. Because of existing health problems of my mothers, my grandma had a big hand in raising me. So much that my mother and I are not really close. My father was not in the picture at all. I also had an older brother who I really looked up to. He is 7 years older than me. I grew up in the same house that I currently live in. My Grandma paid off the house which is a good thing because my mother is to disabled to work, so when my grandma died the house went to my mother. My grandma's health was not that great either so since I was about 11 I helped take care of her and my mother. By doing so it made me grow up really fast. My grandma passed away when I was 16 , that is when I learned to muster up my strength and take of others before I took care of myself.According to some psychologist this is where I learned my co dependency issues (lol everyone in America has issues why do psychs have to name them?)
Oh yes and somewhere along the line I also picked up anxiety and panic disorder.It's real people! And I have found it very hard to overcome. I will most likely touch on it quite a bit in the blogs to come.
hmm ok lets skip past the abusive boy friends and the high school sweet heart who just didn't work out and go to 21years old. I was going to the bar every night as long as I had money. A friend wanted to join me at the bar an she brought along a guy she met on the Internet that she was interested in. He is now my husband...ooops! Things happened fast with him, within 5 months we were expecting our daughter. In 2004 we were married. We found out fast that things were not going to be easy. We moved in with his mom, his brother and his 3 kids into a 1 bedroom apartment. Meanwhile we were also trying to have another child. Obviously the timing wasn't right, I ended up having 3 miscarriages in a year and a half. Also his mom had pre-existing medical issues too, so she moved down to California to be with her daughter. I soon found out I was having a boy, but that joy turned when his mom suddenly passed away shortly after. It was a hard thing for my husband to go through and he went into a deep depression...............

and that is just a summery! actually that is all i am going to get into tonight, it is going to be a bit to take in and yes I will always be long winded! I am challenging myself to write this blog at the very least once a week. So thanks for reading.
~just Jo